One of My Worst Arguments

       Everyone has an argument with someone at one point in their life, and if they haven't then they're probably lying. I've personally had multiple, most for the stupidest reasons. The experience I'm going to be talking about today is when my two (ex)bestfriends said they were not going to come to my birthday party for a selfish reason.

       I had been planning my party for weeks and talking to my best friend, we'll call him Spoon, about it. We were both excited for it. However, a week before my actual party my other best friend, we'll call her Knife, got into a relationship with Spoon. At that time I invited them both and they asked me who else I was inviting. So I told them, and one of my close friends who Spoon happened to date before was on that list because she was my close friend too. Upon hearing this they both said they weren't going to come. Mind you I was actually face timing Knife while she told me this and messaging Spoon at the same time. So she told me she wasn't going and I simply said "Fine." and hung up. I also stopped replying to Spoon.

       So Knife continued to spam my phone, she constantly kept calling me to the point where I had to block her because my phone wasn't able to function. Finally I unblocked her and we got into an argument where she said it wasn't going to be fair to his ex and I kept saying they were beyond selfish. This also happened with Spoon. But Spoon apologized first and said he would come while Knife was still trying to fight it. The most ironic thing is that I talked to his ex (my friend) and she said she would come because I'm still her best friend and she will always be there for me no matter what.

       After, I basically started crying, pathetic now that I think about it. They apologized and said they would still come (which they did). I actually learned a lot from this experience, this argument should've been my first red flag that they were bad friends but that's a story for another time. I learned that Spoon and Knife never were my true friends, they always put themselves first. I also learned that I shouldn't dwell on other people, especially when they obviously won't think about me. Lastly, I learned that it's okay to let go of people because it shapes you into a stronger person and the obstacles you face in your life are just a test to see how strong you really are.

 

Fake It Until You Make It

       The concept "Fake It Until You Make It" means you do something, anything, even if you don't think you're doing good and you do it so much you slowly master the skill.

       The question being asked is what aspects in my life am I most confident in. For me, it's schoolwork, talking, and writing, When I do schoolwork I work really hard to make it the best I can, same goes with writing. When it comes to talking, I just do it so often I've practically mastered it. 

     What I do need more confidence in is baking cookies. I've tried countless times to perfect mine but they always come out to bready, if that's even a word.  I've always persevered yet they never come out right! This is why I have to fake it until I make it. After reading the book Heartless I found the main chacater inspiring because she was a baker and the details she paid attention to was just amazing. After finishing the book I decided to bake and almost mimic her and in result that was my only batch of cookies that came out normally.  Therefore, you can make it until you fake it. That is what I hope to do when baking cookies. 

A Remake of Cinderella...But She's a Robot?!

Book: Cinder (The Lunar Chronciles)

Page: 1-390 (finish) 

Prompt: Write a letter to one of the characters in the story as if you were the main character. 

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Dear Emperor Kai, 

I am extremely sorry for not telling you earlier that I am half cyborg, as someone who is extremely self-conscious and always wishes to be normal I had to keep it my secret. As for being half Lunar, I wasn't aware until Queen Levena arrived.  It was all a scary and catoic experience for me. So many things were happening, my sister died, my step-mon and other step-sister treated me horribly, I was continuously being tested as a subject to find the cure, my best friend was taken away, and not to mention your persistent offers on the ball. I was not intending for all this to happen at once, or at all to be frank. 

After being locked up in a small jail until Queen Levena's departure back to our home planet I spoke to the Dr. He has confirmed my identity. I have been the one you've been searching endlessly for the past couple days, weeks, months even. I am Princess Selene. I should be dead, I shouldn't be here on Earth, I now realize that. I am sorry for the position I have put you and the entire Earth.

Queen Levena will kill me, no doubt about it. She will see me as a threat to overthrow her spot as Queen. I cannot think of a way to save myself or the citizens of both my and your planet. I'm deeply sorry, I wish I couldn't just go back to being half-human and half-cyborg. By the time you are reading this I don't know where I'll be. I just hope you take care and forgive me. 

                                                                                         Yours truly, 

                                                                                                           Princess Selene/Cinder 

A Book with Heartfelt, Hateful, Hanious, and Happy Emotions

Book: Heartless

Author: Marissa Meyers

Page: 0-452 (Finished)

Prompt: Freewrite

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       Where do I even begin? The book, Heartless, was such a good book it makes me cry.  The book tells the backstory of the Queen of Hearts from Alice and Wonderland.  The details are so small, yet intricate. The words on the pages go smoothly together, and the characters will instantly have a place in your heart.  This book, to me, was one of the best I've ever read. 

       I easily fell in love with the chacaters, some more than others *cough cough, Jest, cough cough*. The description itself is amazing, it automatically pulls you in like the scent of fresh baked cookies. The story was so good I read slowly so that my brain would capture the small details, which usually doesn't happen when I read such a good book. 

       The story revolves around a girl named Catherine, her life-long dream is to open a bakery of her own. However, she knows her parents will never let that happen, especially with the King trying to make her his bride. Catherine wants little to do with him but she is constantly pushed by her mother. During these attempts Catherine has dreams of a stranger which she soon meets at a ball, and instantly pulled to him. Her life isn't simple. She is caught between several ties, and has no way out.

       Overall, this was an phenomenal book. I want to share the beauty of it to the world but I also want to keep it to myself. I highly suggest this book to people who love fairy-tales, love, and faith. 

 Description on book: 

Catherine may be one of the most desired girls in Wonderland, and a favorite of the yet-unmarried King of Hearts, but her interests lie elsewhere. A talented baker, all she wants is to open a shop with her best friend and supply the Kingdom of Hearts with delectable pastries and confections. But according to her mother, such a goal is unthinkable for the young woman who could be the next Queen.

At a royal ball where Cath is expected to receive the king’s marriage proposal, she meets Jest, the handsome and mysterious court joker. For the first time, she feels the pull of true attraction. At the risk of offending the King and infuriating her parents, she and Jest enter into an intense, secret courtship.

Cath is determined to define her own destiny and fall in love on her terms. But in a land thriving with magic, madness, and monsters, fate has other plans. 

A Good Act

       The holiday season is a time where people spend time with their families, volunteer, and basically bring cheer to another person. During my winter break, to be completely honest, I didn't really go out of my way to make someone else's day better. That means I didn't volunteer anywhere or buy someone a car, unfortunately. 

       I did however buy my family Christmas gifts, bake, and just spend genuine time with them. I love my family and I honestly think they deserve so much more than what I could buy them for Christmas but I made an effort. 

        I also spent a couple days over at my grandma's house and kept her company and helped her around the house while my grandfather went to work. Leaving, as aslways, was really sad for me because I think she is just so adorable. 

       Something else I could've done that would've helped is bring cheer and support to people or volunteer at a soup kitchen or give supplies and food to those who are less fortunate. I would do this because I think everyone should be given the best Christmas and New Year and should be happy during this time.